Goodbye, Middle Kingdom
As I’m waiting in the departure lounge at Hong Kong airport, I’ve only just realised that the next time I step off a plane, I will no longer be in China. For those of you who don’t know, I’ve had to cut my trip a few weeks short. This was a really hard decision to make, but also one that was in some ways made for me. China has been my home for just over three months and as in any home, there are ‘highs and lows’ and those lows are those things that happen when the novelty wares off, when it’s no longer just a holiday and when every day stops being fun and easy. For me, being ill away from home was at times a real struggle and at times I felt that China and the life here wasn’t helping me (yes, I managed to have days being annoyed at the whole country). But I also know that setbacks and illness are a part of life when you settle in and live somewhere strange and new, so I suppose this could have happened to me anywhere.
Despite all this, the ‘highs’ of my trip and what China has shown me make up for nearly all of those challenging days. Firstly, my students made this experience what it was. Spending so much time at the school, it was comforting to know they were always around and knowing I was on my way to teach my favourite classes brightened everything. I’ll never forget their (sometimes questionable) facial expressions while I was teaching and I don’t think I will ever again meet a group of people so happy to see me on such a regular basis. The way they run across the school just to say hello if you are walking past and the way they ask in unison “how are you today teacher” are things I can’t imagine experiencing in the same way anywhere else. Even the biggest classes of seventy students make it so easy to teach when you you know they will do almost any work you set as long as you tell them something new about England. Before I came here, I was ready to spend time with students and talk with them but I never expected to make friends with them in the way I have. Their English is good enough to talk to them about most things and on many occasions they have made me laugh so much and on the good days, teaching is a real joy. I I had to use a lot of patience and encouragement with them to get to the level they are at now, but as I look back I see now have encouraging and patient they have also been towards me. My hope for them is that they realise speaking English so well at their age is an achievement and something that will get them a very good job one day. I know a lot of my students think because they learn English from a young age it’s not impressive but since my first week, I’ve aimed to make sure they know how good they are. In China, it’s only English reading and writing that is encouraged. When they are discouraged from practising their speaking, I can’t help but smile because I know how it’s this practise that will help them later on. (To put their English into perspective, I can think of at least four students who I would feel comfortable sending to London without a guide and they wouldn’t get lost reading directions or asking for help). I, on the other hand, called said students nearly every time I left the school!
Alice, my volunteer partner and now one of my closest friends also made things easy when they could have been really hard. We would spend nights talking about everything in China, England, Australia and everything in between and if we weren’t doing that then we were singing along to the Lion King or Pacahontas. Living with her made the apartment a home and for her support I will always be grateful.
The other volunteers have also been a highlight of this trip. Again, I didn’t expect to make such close friends and being able to share this experience with a group of people who all get along is really special. I’ll always be grateful that I was a Lattitude volunteer with this cohort of people our first week together teacher training was more about making friends and exploring China together for the first time.
These highs are the memories that I can’t wait to tell people about and photos of these times will trigger the best memories. I’ll admit, I won’t miss the cockroaches, mosquito bites or the excessive dust and I probably could have done without the hospital trips. But I don’t at all regret this trip because it all comes together as an experience. I’ve learnt more than I ever could from a textbook and the questions I had about life in China have been answered. As it is such a vast country, I feel I’ve only scratched the surface and it’s what I’ve already seen that will draw me back here in the future.
I came to China with a slight fear of crowds, I get claustrophobic on the tube and I didn’t like rice. So how can you go to China, a lot of people would ask me. I came here because I wanted to see if I could put my anxieties aside to see a new culture, I had so many curiosities about how people live here and I wanted to experience being a teacher oversees. I know that I’m more comfortable than I’ve ever been, my question have been answered and I am now planning on doing a TEFL course after university. So now if doesn’t matter if I have to go home early, because I’ve achieved what I wanted and as cliched as it sounds, I’ve grown as a person. At times it’s been frustrating and maybe I could never live here permanently but I know China will always be important to me.
Thank you to anyone who has read my blog; if anyone is reading this that’s isn’t my friends or family I’ve tried to be as honest as possible but don’t let it put you off. If anyone has read this because they aren’t sure if China is for them, as I say to my students every week “just have a try.” There is something here for everyone.